Pain

I'm in a Roller Coaster ride at the moment.

Mixed emotions... is what i feel.

'50% Scared'.

I didnt mean to open it..

but yes.....

it hurts to the bones...

my whole body was shaking...

shaking to death..

no tears have flown..

but its really painful..

so painful ..

to made me asked for death..

Now im shattered to million pieces,

how to get a life and move on?

Am i not enough?

when will I become the only one in someone's life?

that my smile's enough to make his day so bright?

maybe I'm really not that kind of girl who would be taken seriously.?

maybe i should just stop whining now and supress everything...

so at least the mistakes will be lessen.

no i cant anymore.. i cannot stop... this is just too painful..

i cant bear it anymore...

get a grip girl..

cannot be appreciated...

because its also my fault...

I am so depress ^_^